beautiful♥disaster

Oh it snowed in Vivaldi today.
How amazing.
First time ever in Singapore man!
Real snow.
HAHAHAHA.
Ice dropping down from the aircon.
And I was stoning under it.
I was freezing my butt off, even though we put the tempertature to 30deg.
But WTF, I think there's something wrong with the aircon.
Oh wells.

I can't wait for Christmas!
Somehow I have a feeling that it would be a very great Christmas for me.
HAHAHA, oh wells.
Happy dreaming ba.

Lazy to post.

If J comes back, I will score A1 for A Math next year.
Kimbo and I promised each other.
Hahaha :/

Oh I happened to re-watch Dirty Eye Girls on YouTube again.
Laughing my ass off cuz the last time I watched it was like before the EOY's.
And that was like more than a month ago.
I was bored, what you expect me to do?
FB is lagging like shit la.

And YAY!
Emmanuelle tagged the photos of us in Sentosa (:
HAHA.
Glad she didn't post the superbly revealing photo of me.
TSKTSK (:


Fel's b'dae was cool.
But it was sad that I missed the dinner part.
The drunk guy story was damn funny man.
I wanted to be there! ):
*gives an ultra super duper sad face*
But oh wells.
I hoped she like all the surprises we gave her.
HAHA (:
I missed Sam man!
So good to see her that day.
Oh man.
Babes, we shall all go out together again one day alrighty!

Loves you guys so much.
Especially Fel Des la.
Since I didn't post a birthday dedication just for you.
HAHA.

One more day to the end of extended studies.
And the end of the school year.

See Rae, I predicted months ago.
I wasn't kidding was I?
_______________ has fallen.
It's officially over.

I should have heeded people's advice you know.
Save me from the inevitable.
But I guess you had to try to know if you will fall.
If you don't fall, that's a good thing.
But if you do, it depends if you survive the fall.
If you died, then too bad.
If you survived, how will you deal with the drama after on?

I never meant for anything like this to happen.
I swear I didn't start it.

I'm insignificant, I'm just a pawn in the game of chess.
And I think I'm destined to remain like that forever.
I'm just letting people control my life.

W/e.
I'm done for now.
I hope I seek solace during the holidays.
In solitude.
And reflect on what I should have done, or what I shouldn't have done.
What I can improve and what I think I have improved on.

I'm not one who voices out my opinion.
I just keep quiet.
And when someone hurts me, I can't seem to find my own voice to protect myself.
And then I suffer inside quietly, alone and hurting deep down there.
And as the wound heals, the scars remain.
I'm afraid of getting hurt.
But at the same time, I want to numb myself to stop the pain.
And I keep silent.
Till its all over.
Yeah I daresay I'm a good actress.
A good pretender.
A good liar.
And I'm just hurting myself more.

I'm glad I've officially been considered a combined science student.
Hope I don't see anymore F9's in my report card.

One more paper!
One more paper!
That's gonna keep me going on.
I swear E Math is the only subject I have confidence for.
LOL.
Screw A Math and Chem la.
Not that I really gave a damn about Chem anyways.
I completely give up liao.

Emmy's birthday tomorrow.
Must decide what to wear haha.
Jiayous (:
The last paper to WOOHOO! :D
YAY (:

I realised I haven't been posting ):
Sorry.
MT paper 2 and Geog today.
I think its alright.
Lexuan put "temperate deciduous forest" for the "coniferous forest".
Damn funny.
Geog joke of the year seriously.

Oh wells, studying for Bio and Lit.
RAWR, must hold on!
Jiayous! (:

Drama is inevitable.
Seeing Mdm Tan cry today, I felt that our class isn't really giving her the due respect.
But that's not the story.
And I don't care what the story is anyways.
As long as you know you don't mean it, then it doesn't matter one tiny bit that no one believes you.

Mrs Foo was unintentionally funny today.
Idk why, she doesn't think that she's pretty.
Weird.

Am studying for my MEP paper tomorrow.
Typing out all my notes.
I hope I do well.
I desperately need my A1.
Because I know that its highly impossible for me to get an A1 for A Math, Chemistry & Biology so as to pass the overall.
And I need to do well for both English & Chinese.
I don't care how difficult it is, but I need to get at least an A2 for both.
My L1R5 will definitely be brought down by the Maths & Sciences.
So yeah.
Target L1R5 for EOY's will be >24.
Yes, its an aim.
I need to do better this term.
:D
I can do it.
I'm gonna do it.
If I don't procastinate and keep blogging.
And spending so much time on the computer.

Oh wells.

Thank you soooo much Ms Tong!
You save me the hassle of having to learn new pieces for my 2nd instrument.
I'd dedicate the whole page to you, but you will never ever read my blog so yeah.
Enjoy the silence (:



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Thank you so much.
It means alot to me and it will never never ever happen again.

Now I have to figure out how to show my mom my progress report.
Dammit.
Why does these things always happen? ):
I think I shall save my tears.
For later.

I spend way too much time on the computer.

One week.
7 days.

1. I hate school holidays, because that's when I spend most of my time on the computer.
It's the most unproductive time.
And being a Gemini, I tend to procastinate ALOT.
Damn.

2. There is less than 2 weeks to MEP practical and I have yet to perfect any of my 5 pieces.
I haven't even started on my Higher bassoon pieces yet!

3. My best friend has left for Switzerland.
No more crapping on MSN.
No more gossip.
Till next Thursday.
Aww, I'm missing ya already.
Though I doubt you're on the plane yet.

4. I watched Wizards Of Waverly Palace: The Movie just now.
Selena Gomez is good (:
But who's that guy who plays her brother?
Quite cute.
I'm gonna start watching all the Disney movies, probably except the ones with Zac Efron.
No offense intended, Laura (:

5. I have officially lost my SanDisk 8GB Gaming PRO memory card.
The little green thing has gone missing.
I think I lost it.
Mom had better not ask for it, or she'll kill me that I lost a perfectly new and unused memory card that cost like $45.

6. I just realised that my dad likes to watch horror movies on the net.
Cheap trills, yada yada.
And he was like watching "Drag Me To Hell" and I was like ...
"7th month you still dare to watch this type of show!"
Not that I believe in it anyways..

7. I'm dreading Chemistry extra class tomorrow.
And Math.
I don't intend to bring any books at all.
Tsktsk.
It's gonna be a long and boring day.
After Chem, it'll be E Math with Mrs Loy and her constipated smile.
And then Piano.
And A Math tuition at night.
ZZZZZZZZ.

Ps: Stupid relay system again from our beloved Mrs Foo.
Do Acid & Bases thingy from Chem workbook.
Dammit.
I left mine in the class cupboard.
HAHA.
Jeez, she'll have a hard time tomorrow.
Best, I shall go and sleep now.

I get so tired of the way you talk to me.
Who the heck you think you are?
You don't have control over anyone.
And I swear if one day I ever blow up at you, you will be so dead.

ABRSM Practical Grade 7 today.
Was quite okay.
I guess.
But I kinda screwed up sight-reading.
Hahaha.

And I ponned the whole day of school.
And my parents & I went shopping.
HAHA.

Bought 2 tops at Bugis.
And they're really prettaye.
And new shoes from BUM.
HAHA.

Went to ION Orchard.
Prada & LV & so many others...
And we thought we couldn't buy anything there.
Just window shopping.
And went to SingTel.
And I got a new phone.
WHOO.
Haha, my W980 (:
Wanted the W995, but it was damn expensive without contract.
So yeah...
I'm so happy (:

So yeah.
Yesterday has been the most bizzare day of this week.
Went to school not realising that there was some course after school.
And then was late attending it.
And having this guy called Ernest reading out our class register.
And I said "He looks like my uncle" to Car.
And when he came to my name, he was went...
"If this one I don't know then I die"
I was like "OMG, its my uncle" to Car.

Having your uncle sitting at the back of your class during some course.
It just feels weird okay.
Like what are the chances that you get to see your uncle in school?
The very same uncle that you only see once a year during Chinese New Year.
In your girls' school furthermore.
And doing some bizzare Nobody (by Wondergirls) dance.
And its up on FB now.
HAHA. I just laughed till my sides ached.

Oh wells.
School was fun today.
A Math was good.
Sinthiya is my A Math/E Math buddy.
Damn funny sitting beside her.
And the A Math spring test has been postponed till next Monday.
Thanks to me being unable to make it tomorrow (:
THANK ME, EVERYONE!
*WINKS*

And Noran had to take home my A Math textbook.
How am I to study? ):
HAHA.

Piano exam tomorrow.
9.56am.
Like what a weird timing!
Oh wells.
I'm ponning the whole day of school.
Including MEP.
Oh wells.
Wish me luck.
I'm gonna die for Arpeggios.
Hahaha.